I can’t ever please you no matter how hard i try. I can never, never  please you. Can you just be happy with me for once or at least try? Im trying my hardest and you dont understand that. You assume so much. And honestly you dont know me. You dont know me so just stop acting like you do. Cause YOU DONT. You know nothing about me. Do you know what i go threw in my head or just anywhere. You always assume shit just stop for once. You dont know me like my close friends do. Just stop acting like you know please get that in your head. Stop judging me just please just stop. Stop acting like im always wrong your so hypocritcal you say that I always blame you oh my fucking god You give me shit all the fucking time and you dont even realize it. You got so bitter threw all the years and you keep getting worse. I hope you know that. Arguing every fucking day with mother is not only making you worse but its making our whole family worse. Were all getting worse everyday. You know why im out so much? Its cause this house is soo damn depressing. The atmosphere just makes me automatically more deppressed. literally when i walk in the house im just so dammn sad. Im already depressed but you dont give a shit and it so obvious so lets move on. You know why i lie to you so much? Cause you get mad over every small thing so i get scared youll get mad and i want to please you.. BUT NO ONE CAN EVER FUCKING PLEASE YOU. Your turning out like my mother everyday. worse and worse. your gonna be jus like her. I know the truth hurts but im sorry I just have to say it. You can only hold in something for so long. Stop trying to push me into something i dont want to be. Your making me worse everytime you do that. You dont realize that. I hope someday when were older youll learn to do that. Im not a bad Kid I know you grew up in a strict enviorment. But Serisoly please just stop contraling my life. If you trusted me we would have a better relationship but since you dont. Are relationship sucks between the two of us.  You are not me. You get that? You dont know what i go threw.how can i respect someone who doasnt treat me right? You scream at me, curse and spit in my face like you have no damn respect for me. Now tell me how can i respect you? Have you ever even tried to get to know me? no really have you. You never ask how my day is, how i feel I wish you could do that for me. What if i had just such a terrible day and i just was at the  verge taking pills and you just scream at my face some more? What would happen? I would serisoly do it. Ive done it before what would stop me from doing it again ? Its those times where i wish i had my dad. I really do. I wish i got to know him cause sometimes i feel like alot missing inside of me. I feel so sadd. You dont know even have a clue. Of course you’ll think Im just doing everything for attention. Oh she just wants attention just some hormones and all that shit. I wont take her serious cause shes only thirteen shes not going threw that bad of shit. You tell mother this all the time? Stop focusing on the negative side. Why dont you stop too? Why dont you ever notice when im trying my hardest to please you. Just one day im gonna run away from all of this. Itll all be gone. You wont have to yell at me anymore. And tell me everything i do wrong. Youll save your breathe for something else. Cause obviouisly I cant ever please you and your not happy with me. Maybe this familys better of without me. Screaming at me more and being as strict as you can be will not make me better.Why do you want me to be scared of you..like What do you get out of that..  Watever happend to having a close bond with your child you know ive always wanted that. I wish i had parent like that That i trusted and could tell anything too and id be comfterable around and just say what i feel and itll be okay and itll give me advice and everything. And wed go out and bond. Like idk that kinda why i wish my dad was alive cause maybe he was like that. You were raised diffrently you know. But at least something good comes out of this. When im older im gonna be nothing like you. Im gonna make sure my child feels love. Ill displine but not too extremes ill trust her and well have a good relationship. Ill make sure my child can tell me anything without her being afraid of what ill say. Theres a diffrence of being scared of someone and respecting someone. Youll get respect if you treat someone the way you want to be treated. Dont ever forget that. There shouldnt be a “boss” or win or loose. No war Just peace. You see me as what you want to see me.